3.2 GPA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ahh!! i’m so excited. I know i’ll be going into my junior year of college, but this is the highest GPA i’ve had for a semester my entire college career, and i’m really excited and happy.
hopefully i can keep this momentum up the next two years
i can’t wait to tell Eric <3
EDIT: he was so proud of me when i told him :)
well, that didn’t go so well
big fight with the parents last night. long story short, they wouldn’t let me go. i told them i’m going anyway, but they wouldn’t have it. i’m not going in August anymore, but it’s not because they don’t want me to, it’s because i know how much it will hurt them and i won’t do that to them…but that doesn’t mean i’m not going anymore. I WILL GO SEE ERIC NEXT YEAR. and they won’t know about it. i’m not telling them.
i just had a long talk with my mom, and i wanted to jot down some things she said so i can tell Eric tomorrow
-she asked why i want to go, for sex, and that Eric would poke the condom and get me pregnant
-she asked me where i’d go, i said mexico city because he lives there, and she said that i shouldn’t believe him
-she said if he won’t kill me, his friends will
-fire analogy
-she said that her and my dad would take me to cancun when i graduate college…NO.
-she told me to find another guy from the US…never gonna happen
-she asked me who i would choose: her or Eric.
only a day away.
i’ve decided to tell my parents about my trip to see Eric this summer. on the inside i’m pretty nervous but on the exterior i’m maintaining my cool.
the thing about my parents is that you never know how they’ll react to something since they don’t show that much emotion in general anyway
i’m determined to go. nothing can stop me.
i feel a thousand times better now.
Eric sent me a text telling me to call him asap.
of course i called him right when i got the text. and when i said he always has a legit excuse, he did. apparently his phone charger wouldn’t work anymore and he didn’t have time to buy a new one because he’s been working 2pm-2am all week. he had his friend get one for him. i told him what happened with the flight, my sister, and my grades and how my mom wasn’t satisfied. but he, my hero, said that he was proud of me.
i feel bad for ever doubting his love for me, even though i should know by now that he will always try his best to talk to me. he said he missed me so much, and was thinking about me.
most importantly, he still wanted me to go see him in August, which i was doubting. i told him i was planning on telling my parents tonight, but that i would wait until sunday night because my mom is going to the doctor today and i want to make sure everything is okay first.
his text came just in time, because i have my last and hardest exam tonight, so i really needed his support. i feel so much better after hearing his voice and it just makes me want to see him that much more <3
so i have my last final today out of my 5 total. i’ve gotten 2 grades back already, two B’s. oddly enough, i am estatic. i was so worried last semester that i would even manage to pull off at least all B’s, and this semester i might end up getting a 3.2 GPA. i feel great being (relatively) confident in what i’m getting and being good with it.
i called my mom last night when i got the B in my genbus class, and shes like “that’s ok.” i called her this morning when i got the B in my spanish class, and shes like “i thought that was an easy class. try harder next year”
it really sucks having her not be as excited as i am. i’ve never gotten above a 3.0 my entire college career, and now that i will and am telling her what grades i’m getting to get there, she doesn’t give a shit. it’s annoying to have my hard work still being criticized. she told me to try my hardest next semester….what the fuck do you think i’m doing now?? this IS my hardest. i wish someone would appreciate it.
such a stressful day. i am in the middle of finals. it is Wednesday, the 16th and i haven’t spoken to Eric since Friday the 11th. it’s been 5 days since we last spoke. we talk every other day so our next scheduled time to talk after friday was sunday. i call him, and he didn’t answer. i’ve been calling him everyday 10+ times but no answer. i get an automated message saying his phone is off. usually it just means he doesn’t have signal, but i can safely assume it is off. everytime he doesn’t answer my phone calls, i get worked up. and everytime he always has a legit reason of what happened. but i’m really worried. he should know by now that if something is wrong with his phone, he should try to call me. there are so many other ways to communicate with me. like facebook. i talked to his cousin on his FB today and she said he’s been going to her house to eat dinner as always, so i told her to tell him to call me if he can. i assume she told him, but no call. i would’ve at least thought that he would’ve used their computer to go on facebook to talk to me. but no. i’m at the point where i’m really pissed off because i know he’s okay since his cousin said he was working (meaning they talked recently). i really need to talk to him about me visiting him. i am supposed to tell my parents when i come home on friday but i still have questions for him. and how can i even go if his phone isn’t working? what’s going to happen when i’m at the airport and can’t find him and his phone doesn’t work? i’m freaking out, and i have no one to talk to. my heart feels like it’s broken. i don’t know what to think because i don’t know what possible reason he could have to not do everything he can to get in touch with me. if he doesn’t talk to me by friday, i can’t go on the trip. as badly as i want to
NO ME DIGAS QUE MI ESPANOL ES INCORRECTO. NO ME IMPORTA. pienso que lo que es mas importante es que practico mas y mas. odio cuando otras personas me dicen todo lo que estoy haciendo mal. esas cosas me hacen no querer hablar espanol mas :(
acabo de hablar el telefono con mi miel, Jesus. Lo dije de mis planes, y no puedo explicar como emocionado el estaba. y su felicidad me hace tan emocionada tambien porque yo se como el quiere verme. hablamos sobre puntos importantes, por ejemplo, comunicacion con mi familia y el aeropuerto. el estaba salvando para una computadora, como ya dije, pero ahora con el cambio en planes, el decidio que va a salvar su dinero para cuando yo llegue.
obviamente, tengo algunas reservaciones, pero, no me importa. el es el amor de mi vida y quiero hacer lo que necesito para verlo. si, puede ser peligroso alli, pero (como Jesus dijo), cuantas cuidades NO son peligrosas? bueno, todas de las ciudades son peligrosos en qualquiera manera. no quiero tener miedo mas. quiero hacer lo que quiero….y voy a hacerlo exactamente eso.
me gusta como ver cuando escribo en espanol. pues, no es un secreto que necesito practicar la lengua. ademas, pienso que voy a escribir mas en espanol. no tengo el teclado de espanol en mi computadora (recientemente se fija) porque soy una poca perezosa jejeje.
creo que es todo para esta noche…voy a llamar Jesus (Eric) mas tarde, como a las 10. pero ahora, necesito estudiar para mis examenes!
hasta luego :)
soy una persona muy positiva y muy optimista. le dijo a mi hermana de mis planes para ir a Mexico y la unica cosa que ella dijo es que podria ser peligro para mi y que ella no quiere que yo vaya solo. ???? estoy enojada porque es un viaje que yo quiero muchisimo. no he visto mi novio en ocho meses. OCHO. yo se que ella moriria si no puede ver su novio en 8 meses, especialmente desde que ellos ven unos a otros cada fin de semana. su reaccion es ridiculo. es como ella no tiene ninguna compasion para mi situacion….
solo quiero alguien que vaya a apoyarme con mi viaje. pense que mi hermana puede ser una persona que podia confiar en, pero no.
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